Today I realized a thing.
The only reason I don’t feel happy is because
I won’t let myself feel happy
The only reason I feel lonely is because
I choose to be alone
The only reason I feel single is because
I keep telling everybody that I’m single
That I hate it.
Which is not true.
It’s quite fun.
I quite enjoy the freedom.
The random nights.
The hot, awkward, romantic, sexy and awful kisses.
Each one is a story I treasure.
A time I will miss someday in the future
When I can no longer run around and kiss strangers
Today I learned that if I wish to be happy
I simply have to tell myself to be happy
Because I am
I’ve just hid it under a negative layer of hatred and complaints
because I thought that was more interesting
Because people told me I was too positive
But what is that?
That’s a great thing
So if you don’t mind
I’m going to strip those negative layers off
One annoying thought at a time:
I work too much
– yes, but only cause you like your job
I never get anything done
– no, because you stare into your phone all day
I will never find a boyfriend
– maybe you should go on a date
I am so lonely
– no, you never answer your friend or accept their invitations
I will die alone
– you isolate yourself out of boredom
Today I learned a lot
I learned how to grow and move on
I learned how to stop the negative stream of thought
I’m quite excited about tomorrow
Some changes are good
And I can’t wait for this one!