Collapsed Universe

I didn’t know how to tell you
So I decided to write it down for you instead

I like you
I really do
But the truth is

I’m scared
Scared of liking you
Scared you might like me back

For what if we fall in love
Will it all happen again
The agony
The hurting

I’ve been loved before
Have someone mean the whole world to them
But then they tore that world down
Before I was ready to say goodbye

So I guess what I’m trying to say is
Be gentle with me
I may come off as strong and fierce
But you have to know
I’m only trying to survive
Trying to save myself from yet another dream being torn apart
Another universe collapsing before my eyes

I like you
I know that
I’ve tried to scare the feeling away
But they keep coming back
I’ve tried to run
Replace you with someone else
But you keep popping up everywhere

You like me
I see it in your eyes
The way you look at me
I don’t want to hurt you
Which is why I’m telling you this
For if I can’t be honest with you
If can’t be honest with myself
Then I will never heal

⁃ I want a universe to last

Poetry, Written Words

Should be posting

What am I doing
I should be posting right now
Should be sharing my life
With you and the whole world

Look what I'm doing
see how perfect my life is

But I forget
I enjoy
How wrong of me

If I don't show it it's fake
I never really went to Barcelona
Never really saw my friends

If I did we didn't have fun
Cuz then I would have showed you

I feel the need linger in my fingertips
I reach for my phone
Ready to show the world
But something stops me
You look me in the eye
And I forget
Forget to care about the world

And just enjoy the moment