Poetry

Giggly

How can you make me feel so nervous

Like I’ve got nothing to say

Like all I say is silly

Giggly

And childish

I want to make you smile

Make you run away

And never look back

That way I won’t fall in love again

Won’t get disappointed

Won’t have my heart broken again

But what if I didn’t

What if I actually tried

And showed you the real me

Not the pink haired unicorn girly-girl

The vulnerable quiet insecure one

The one I rarely show the world

For it is easier to put on a show

Than allow others to hurt and judge you

Easier playing the fool

Than who we really are

For what if someone see you

And doesn’t like you

⁃ I really don’t want to fuck this up

Poetry

Jazzy feeling

I loved you like I love an old jazz song

That cozy feeling of familiar is surrounding me

We sing and smile like we’ve felt this way forever

Nothing out of the ordinary

 

We fell apart like the sound of crashing waves

Beautiful from afar but threatening up close

We fall at times when we want to stand

I know this
for this is me

We summon the wrong things at the wrong time

I feel bad for you

For you will never get this again

Never feel my breath on your skin or my love in your heart

 

I smile remembering it all

I cry trying to forget it

– That jazzy feeling

Poetry

I once fell in love

I once fell in love
I wrote it all down

I wanted to tell the story
For love is not always forever

It doesn’t have to be pure
It can just be right in the moment

Right for you

 

I wanted to tell you about my feelings
About my sorrows
Not to help you or guide you to salvation

But to tell you it’s okay to cry
Okay to feel lost
That sometimes things don’t work out
That sometimes the thing you want is right in front of you

 

I once fell in love
It was wonderful and splendid
I still remember it like yesterday
But now it’s time to let go

So I collected all our words into this book
To tell the world our story
To tell the world about us