Poetry

Patterns

Patterns
The way I look down when I’m hurt

Same stories
The way you forget my feelings

Hands
The way I fumble with my fingers
Trying to make the pain go away

Burning eyes
I blink my eyes fast
And faster
Trying to make the hurt disappear

Force it to stay bottled up
For I can’t let you see the sorrow I feel inside
Can’t let you see my emotions

I don’t want to be vulnerable
Sensitive
I want to be strong

To keep the difficult feelings away
So I find the lid I foolishly took off
Attach it
Nice and tightly

Put a sticker on top saying
“Remember last time”
And put the bottle away

Where nobody can find it
And even if they do
I won’t open it for them

For I remember what happened today

⁃ I don’t want to hurt anymore

Poetry

Feelings

Don’t get any feelings
I told myself as he caressed my hand

Don’t get any feeling
I told myself as we talked about the past
The ups and downs
The memories

Don’t get any feelings
He told me when I wanted to hold his hand
To feel him close to me like I did the night before

Don’t get any feelings
I thought as I laid in bed next to him
Feeling his warm breath on my neck
Thinking about yet another goodbye

Don’t get any feelings I mumbled when I got on the plane
Leaving you behind
Without any feelings

⁃ It didn’t work