Poetry, Written Words

Mirror

A mirror is like looking into a persons soul.
Their expression when they find one, will tell you everything you need to know.
Their mood, happiness and feelings, are measured by how that person in the mirror stares back at them. Are they happy? Sad? Fat? Thin?
A lot can be said about that person. A lot of words can be screamed. Not nice, not useful. Anything goes.

When I look into the mirror I stare. I stare for minutes, sometimes for hours. I look for answers. If the mirror can't tell me what's wrong, then no one can. If the mirror can't make me smile, then no one can.

I have tried loving it. Hating it. Breaking it.. but they're everywhere. Glass, water, reflections. They follow me around.
Look here, look there, I'm back again. Love me, notice me, look at me.

And I do. I go back every time hoping something has changed. Hoping something is new and better. But it never is. I guess I'll just have to live with it and smile back. Hoping.

It will all be okay.

Karoline's Blog, Written Words

Why do we always chase anything BUT our dreams

As I’m thinking about what I want to do with my life, I always seem to think of smart ways to get there, instead of just getting there.

“If I want to write a book, I must first be a presenter to get a following”.
– Says who???

While you’re chasing the wrong dream, you’re getting further away from the actual one. Why do we always think it’s a good idea to distract ourselves from our dreams and think they will be there later on. One day they will give up on you, if you don’t hang on to them. Give them attention, love and determination. They need to know they matter to you, otherwise why would you matter to them?

A classic thing is that we postpone it. Or believe we will achieve it somehow. “I don’t need to write, to be a writer” – Said no-one ever.

You have to feel deep down in your gut, if you feel good when you’re doing the thing you “want to do”. Otherwise what is the point. There’s no happiness in pursuing a tennis career if you hate tennis.

So why do we always avoid it. Or worse run away from our dreams.. What happens if we don’t achieve them? If someone else gets there before you? Or if you end up going in a completely different direction. Nothing. Nothing happens. But wouldn’t you rather live knowing that you tried, that you gave it your all?

I am not scared of a lot in this life. But I am super scared of telling people what I actually dream of. It’s much easier coming up with a lie. That way they won’t know you failed, cause they didn’t know your real dream. But let’s for a moment try to concentrate on you. Forget the outside world and what they think of you.

You’re too scared to try because you’re afraid to fail. It’s as simple as that. Not rocketscience. You would rather have succes in something than succes in nothing.

But maybe.. Just maybe. If you spend less time trying to achieve things you don’t want, or spend time on useless dreams, and actually go for the one. You just might make it!

So stop hiding in the shadows and go all in. Be you, or the “you”, you want to be. Be the person you deep down know you can be.

Karoline's Blog, Written Words

Instagram your way through life

On my journey of figuring out who the heck I am, or who I am going to be, I decided to give Instagram a go. Instagram has found a way into everybody’s hearts in the last 7 years since its start in 2010. It continues to amaze me, how many people have found careers through an mobile app. Amaze me and inspire me. As I was trying to figure out how to start a following, I immediately thought of Instagram!

If you want to show off you work and personality, this is a perfect site for it. But you have to be up for the tasks at hand. I naively thought this would be a walk in the park, but I quickly understood I was wrong. As I started my new business profile Capturedbykaroline, I had to make some choices.

  • What kind of profile is this?
  • Should I mix business with pleasure?
  • Is this only going to be travel photographs?

As overwhelming all of this seemed, I decided to just go for it. See where it takes me and not plan it all out. I found 30 of my best shots from various travels and started posting one a day. Nothing big happened the first week. I was not going to give up though.

When Nate World (Nathan Buchan) and his girlfriend Hannah, offered a free lecture on Travel blogging, I immediately signed up! They said a lot of useful stuff and I felt so inspired and motivated after the lecture. I started yet another website on Wix, posted a sunset picture on Instagram and started to follow travel bloggers, to get more inspiration.

You are not going to believe what happened next. Okay it’s not that crazy, but I was pretty excited! I got 100 followers in 1 day. I was over the moon and had no clue what to do about it. So I ran to Urban Outfitter and bought a book that had all the answers. It’s called “Read this if you want to be instagram famous”. In this book, 50 of the biggest instagrammers gives you advise on how to make your profile popular.

I’ve never been an expert on Instagram. I’ve heard about the whole Follow4Follow and Like4Like things, but didn’t really believe that whole thing. I would soon learn the fakeness of it all.

At the end of the day I had reached 115 followers. I was estatic. I did everything the book said. Like their pictures, follow them back and give them nice comments. But you don’t know the rules of the game, till you’re out.

A few days later my following count was down to 75, then 60. 

People like and follow, but only for a minute or two. I started to realize, how much energy and time I would have to put into this, if I wanted to become big. How much lying and manipulating was involved.

I didn’t like it. I would rather have 3 nice followers, than 1000 fake ones. That’s why, now I just do it for me. Just because I like posting and want to stay involved. I haven’t given up on my dream, I just don’t want to get it like that. I doubt that getting 12000 followers, will make me any happier.

What do you think?

Karoline's Blog, Written Words

Finding myself 101

Hi this is Karoline. This summer has been all about trying to figure out who the hell I am, or at least who I want to be when I graduate. Graduating should be a blessing, not a curse, but no… I AM FREAKING OUT!

After you’ve finished your studies, everybody expects you to have everything sort of figured out and a job in your lab the day of graduation. But what if you still don’t have any idea which direction you want to go in. Sooo in order to figure it all out, I’ve decided to try it all out!

It’ll be fun I promise.
So the next few weeks I will try out different careers such as romantic novel writer, youtuber, poet, comedian and director, to try and figure out where I’m going to end up. Get excited and get on board!

See ya!