Karoline's Blog, Poetry

Happiness

Today I realized a thing.

The only reason I don’t feel happy is because I won’t let myself feel happy.

The only reason I feel lonely is because I choose to be alone.

The only reason I feel single is because I keep telling everybody that I’m single.

That I hate it.

Which is not true. It’s quite fun. I quite enjoy the freedom. The random nights. The hot, awkward, romantic, sexy and awful kisses. Each one is a story I treasure. A time I will miss some day in the future when I can no longer run around and kiss strangers.

Today I learned that if I wish to be happy I simply have to tell myself to be happy. Because I am. I’ve just hid it under a negative layer of hatred and complaints because i thought that was more interesting. Because people told me I was too positive. But what is that? Too positive. That’s a great thing.

So if you don’t mind.

I’m going to strip those negative layers off.

One annoying thought at a time:

I work too much – yes, but only cause you like your job

I never get anything done – no, because you stare into your phone all day

I will never find a boyfriend – maybe you should go on a date

I am so lonely – no, you never answer your friend or accept their invitations

I will die alone – you isolate yourself out of boredom

Today I learned a lot.

I learned how to grow and move on.

I learned how to stop the negative stream of thought.

I’m quite excited about tomorrow.

Some changes are good.

And I can’t wait for this one!

Poetry, Written Words

Thinking Red

There’s something beautiful about the fall
When the leaves drop in time with the temperature
and the mind wanders to warmer times
It fills you up

That old song is back reminding you of back when
When you were here in my arms
I smile at the memory
But leave it behind

The fog flies before my eyes
But I see everything clearly

In this town I grew up in
I understand why we’re here
Why the world keeps spinning

The leaves fall
Die
And come back to live
Our love feel apart,
died
and now we’re ready for a new love to come to live

That’s how life works
How the seasons change our hearts and souls

Fall is a beautiful time
A time to reflect and evolve
A time to find your new place in this world

Long talks with coffee cups
That’s what it’s really about

Thinking Red helped me see life in pink