Twenty four

I guess I thought life would be different at twenty four

That I wouldn’t wake up with the smell of wine stuck between my teeth

That I would have gotten sick of kissing strangers

Sick of thinking of the same old love

Sick of regretting the same things

Twenty four seemed like the age I would have my life together

Would know my goals and aim for them

Clean my room and always take out the trash

Always wear high heels for birthdays

Always look my best

But I feel just like I did at nineteen

And twenty two

Feel confused and tired and tipsy

Horny but looking for love

Late but running for the train

The train to adulthood

I can still catch it if I just wear an unstained dress

If I just pick one solid guy and make myself fall for him

If I just choose one job career and pull through even though I hate every minute of it

Then maybe I will someday reach that famous next level

Maybe then I won’t think twenty four is that bad

Maybe I will think back at it and smile.

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