Poetry, Written Words

Today I decided to get a boyfriend

Today I decided to get a boyfriend
So I sat down
found my phone
made popcorn
and downloaded the app

The lovemaking app
My future husband app

As I sit and swipe I think
No
No
No

This was not how I expected
my Friday night to go
Too scared to leave the room
to look them in the eyes

So I swipe
Architect
Yes
Guitar
Yes
Long hair
Yes

Will I ever learn
My type is terrible
The worst
No wonder you’ll never find the one
When you keep choosing the wrong one
The easy one

I want to find the King of my heart
My muse
my new someone
not the new you

So i swipe
I buy wine
and swipe
till there are no more men

Poetry

It took one glance

It took one image to fall back in love with you

One glance for all the feeling to come crashing down on me

The memories returning l, making me wonder why we ever stopped

We were good together

Weren’t we?

We should be together

Shouldn’t we?

Is it too late now?

Did I loose my chance

Fuck it all up with my insecurity and doubtful mind

I really hope one day you will forgive me

That one day I get to look into those eyes again

The eyes that made me believe in love once again

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Demands for future lovers

When I was younger, finding a boyfriend was so easy.

He just had to be cute and popular. Make me laugh and like my friends.
Lately, it seems like a different story. As if there are too many factors and demands to think about. Too many checkboxes to check off before you will even consider dating that person.

Here are the new considerations I have when deciding if I like someone or not (which is also stupid seeing that you can’t choose who you like. It just happens. But when you’re single and bored this is what you do. Consider everyone you see or know)

  1. Last name. I never thought about this. But I obviously want my future husband to have a beautiful last name that goes well with my name as well. I can’t be called Karoline Kooler Karlsen or something weird like that. The initials just don’t really have a nice tone…
  2. Children. Does he want them? When does he want them? If he’s much older than me, he prob wants them waaay sooner than I. I’m “only” 24″ so still have a few years before I want to start considering that. But if he’s 30, I’d worry it’s on his mind NOW. But then again if he’s much younger I’d have to wait TOO long.. Gosh.
  3. Age. Which made me think of age. I want someone I can talk about my childhood with, but also want him to be mature and have an adult job. So a bit older than me.
  4. Job. Jobs weren’t even really a subject when we were younger. If he worked at the cinema it was a plus cuz then you could get free popcorn. Now it’s more complicated than that. I have a tendency to fall for creative types. Aka. unemployed boys. Not men. Not suit-owning, let me treat you, let’s go to Paris kind of guys. I don’t care if they’re crazy rich, that’s not it. But I want the freedom to be able to do what we want to do. I have my own money, and I want him to know how to handle his money as well. This seems like quite a big subject lately.
  5. Family. I love my family. I want my family to love my future husband. I want my future husband to love my family. I want us all to be ONE BIG FAMILY. You get me. Right?
  6. Timing. Gosh… If my best friend has a baby in two years, then I need to have a baby in two years cuz those kids have to either be best friends or get married. It’s all about timing. My kids have to play with my brother’s kids so we have to time that as well. I know we can’t choose when to fall in love and all that, but gosh wouldn’t that be nice.
  7. Hobbies. This is a hard one. Opposites attract and all that. But what if he likes pop and I like heavy metal (killing stereotypes and all that. It’s very inn in 2018). What if he wants to watch action movies and I love musicals. He hates traveling and I can’t breathe without it. Some things are just hard to choose and live without. We have to time them just right, so we like some of the same things, but aren’t the EXACT same person.
  8. Country. Where should we live? Where does he live? Where do we want to work? Should we move around? Stay grounded? Get bored? I don’t even know where I’m heading with this one. I guess I just have a slight feeling I’ll end up with someone from another country (really Karoline what makes you think that. Maybe the fact that you haven’t dated a Danish guy since you were 17).
  9. Way of life. Is he a morning person? Super fit and will blame me and my Nutella obsession (then I obviously won’t marry him but you get it). Is he cheap or does he spend all his money on stupid things? Will he force me to throw out all my CD’s….. Please don’t…!
  10. I guess the thing is. Will we fit well in the long run? Will we be able to make each other happy? Laugh every day. Be able to be good parents while still remembering to love each other. Be able to grow up and get wrinkly and still look into those eyes and think of that special day when we swiped right. Or locked eyes in the metro. Or bumped into each other drunk at a music festival.

I suppose all these thoughts keep running through my brain which makes the first date quite stressed. I know you can’t know till you know. That I don’t have to meet the one right now and I can just have fun and meet him when the time is right.

But am I the only one who has these thoughts. The only one who considers every single thing about a guy before I allow my heart to fall hard. For if it’s not right, not perfect, is it even worth it?
Yes. Yes, it is. Each person leads us closer to the right one.
Hopefully one day I’ll find someone whom I can check all the important boxes. Not in a perfect way. But in the way that’s perfect for us.

Poetry

You are so kind

You are so kind
You are so kind
It’s not like the other times

You are so sweet
I don’t know how to treat you right
scared of breaking you

The others were strong
Sexy
Grand

But you
You are genuine
Sweet

The good kind
The loving kind
The marrying kind

I don’t know how to act
How to talk
How to deserve such a sweet creature as you

But maybe it’s time I try
Try to find something worth my time
Someone to take care of me for a change
Someone to be kind to me

Poetry

I once fell in love

I once fell in love
I wrote it all down

I wanted to tell the story
For love is not always forever

It doesn’t have to be pure
It can just be right in the moment

Right for you

 

I wanted to tell you about my feelings
About my sorrows
Not to help you or guide you to salvation

But to tell you it’s okay to cry
Okay to feel lost
That sometimes things don’t work out
That sometimes the thing you want is right in front of you

 

I once fell in love
It was wonderful and splendid
I still remember it like yesterday
But now it’s time to let go

So I collected all our words into this book
To tell the world our story
To tell the world about us

 

Poetry

You and I are a strange match

You and I are a strange match

A crazy couple

You smile

Spark

I laugh

Fire

We touch

Blazing heat

I want to tell you so bad

But I’m scared of ruining it

Scared of letting go

Letting myself fall

If I fall I’m lost

If I fall I’ll loose

If I fall I need you to catch me

A cliché but true

A burden but important

A exaggeration but underrated

For if you are not there for me

Who will be

If you won’t hold me close at night

Who will?

We’re a strange match

A funny couple

But maybe that just might work

Maybe that just might be right

Maybe we should try